Title:The Laws of Attraction: Part One Author: dreiser [ Send a Private Message ]
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Copyright: Showtime Content Rating: NC-17 Disclaimer: I own nothing but my super adorable Pug puppy Vlad. He's so ugly he's cute! Author's Note: This is my first L Word fanfic so any feedback would be really appreciated. Especially in the realm of how well I'm writing Dana and Alice in particular since this is a fanfic that focuses on their romance.
Summary: The infamous four a.m. kiss sets off a motion of events and emotions between Alice and Dana that cannot be denied, much like certain scientific laws. Total Views: 7810 times.
One very late night in college, during a bout of drunken philosophizing that came from finding out Tayo cheated on her for quite possibly the hundredth time, Alice created her formidable and so far, consistently accurate laws of attraction. They were the following...
1. Feelings of love can't be denied. 2. Attraction, once recognized, can't be ignored. 3. Trying to lie about your emotions only makes things worse.
Several years later, Alice held to these rules because they had proven true no matter how much life changed around her. She never shared the rules with anyone due to the fact that, more than anything, she hated having to prove herself and her beliefs in life to other people. To say otherwise would be a massive understatement. All her life, Alice had been made to feel never good enough. Something that hadn't been eased by having a mother who always seemed too busy for Alice in the varied and endless ways that mattered to a child. Things like asking about how her day went, encouraging her interests, and knowing who she was as a person.
These things and so much more were part of the reason Alice fell in love with Dana. Though, strangely enough, she wasn't sure when exactly those feelings began. Not Dana knowing her so well, she was aware of that, but the actual falling in love with her best friend part. Somehow it had snuck up on Alice when she wasn't aware, much like a stealthy predator. Or since this was Dana she was talking about an awkward yet adorable kitten hell bent on play attacking a creature ten times its size just because they thought it seemed like fun.
Witnessing Dana's whirlwind relationship with Tonya play out had filled Alice with a fierce anger she had yet to experience in her life and at first it scared her. She wasn't the type of person to become bitterly jealous about romantic relationships. No, her style was to act so incredibly derisive and sardonic that no one would notice how envious she actually was.
For as long as Alice could remember she'd been jealous of happy couples and the pleasure they found in each others company. She despised feeling that way but she couldn't stop it simply because what those couples had was what she truly wanted in her life.
Someone to love and someone to love her back.
And not just any someone. She wanted a person who knew her, really and truly knew her. Knew that her flirtatious attitude was just that, an attitude. A very well put upon act she learned from her mother to mask her fears and insecurities from others. She wanted someone who knew why the chart was so important to her and didn't dismiss its potential to link countless gay, bisexual, and questioning women in the great big tangled mess that was the LA romantic scene. She wanted someone who knew why she sang Instant Karma by John Lennon to feel better on a bad day and the reason behind her childhood fear of eating dill pickles.
In other words, she wanted someone like Dana. But now it had gone from wanting someone like Dana to just plain wanting Dana. There was no one else in Alice's mind. That long lost phantom figure of the perfect boy/girlfriend had exited her subconscious and in its place stood Dana. Tall, tan, sweet, silly, geeky, and utterly perfect because of all these things Dana.
Sitting in her bed, sifting her fingers through Tina's hair in an absent gesture of comfort for her friend who had long since cried herself to sleep, Alice decided to just admit it. "I want Dana Fairbanks," she whispered timidly.
Silence. The sky didn't fall. The world wasn't tipped off its axis. The plague of locusts had not descended. There was only the sound of silent acceptance and Tina's soft exhale of breath. This gave Alice a boost of confidence and she decided to elaborate on her previous statement.
"I love Dana Fairbanks," Alice said with a little more gusto, a hesitant yet happy smile forming on her face. It felt so good to say that... so very good. Surely if she went that extra yard and just said it all, well... how good would that feel? Alice threw caution to the wind and wearing a goofy expression, she declared proudly, "I'm in love with Dana Fairbanks."
"Good for you, Al," mumbled Tina sleepily. "But when the hell did that happen, huh?"
"T!" shrieked Alice, jumping up and causing a drowsy Tina to flop off her lap and onto the bed with a groan. "Oh jeez, I'm so sorry... I didn't mean to do that. You scared me, that's all. I thought you were still asleep."
"I gathered that from hearing the whole 'I love Dana Fairbanks', 'I'm in love with Dana Fairbanks', impromptu speech," Tina murmured, shifting her head on a pillow and opening one sleepy eye to peer at Alice contemplatively. "Now are you going to tell me when exactly this happened or will I be forced to tickle a confession out of you?"
"Are you sure?" asked Alice with a frown, observing her friend carefully. The last thing she wanted to do was babble on about the confusing state of her love life if Tina didn't really want her to do so. God knows that Tina had been through enough without being forced to listen to unwelcome tales of romantic angst and/or confusion. "I mean, I'm okay. I don't need to talk but if you want to talk then I can talk. Of course, I can talk about anything you know. Like last week I swear I found a potato chip that looks exactly like my Aunt Brenda. It was so disturbing..."
"Al," Tina interrupted wryly, a slow and genuinely sweet smile forming on her face as she did so. "I want to hear you talk. But not about the Aunt Brenda potato chip. I'm more interested in the whole loving Dana Fairbanks revelation. Do I need to threaten tickling again or are you finally going to answer my question?"
"That's the crazy thing about this though," murmured Alice, slumping backwards onto the bed and lying next to Tina as she stared up at the ceiling. "I honestly don't know when or how this happened. All I know is that it's the truth." Looking at Tina with a shy gaze that was undeniably compelling in the emotions it held, Alice said softly, "I'm in love with her."
Studying Alice for a long moment, Tina murmured in quiet amazement, "You really are, aren't you?"
"Yeah," replied Alice, an unbidden smile tugging on her lips at just the thought of Dana. It felt incredibly good to share these feelings with someone else without the fear of rejection that naturally came with them. "I am. Though," Alice heaved a loud sigh, "I have no idea when this loving Dana thing started." Frowning thoughtfully, she went on, "I guess maybe it's been building up for a long time now and somehow I never noticed."
"I can see that," said Tina, moving around so she and Alice could be face to face while remaining snugly ensconced underneath the blankets. "I think that love tends to do one of two things. The first is that it hits you hard and fast. Something that's been well chronicled as love at first sight in books, television, and countless bad movies. The second is that it sneaks up on you slow and silent, never letting you know about its approach. Then bam!" Tina clapped her hands loudly together for a sound effect. "It hits you out of nowhere and you're down for the count."
"Love is Mike Tyson and I'm Evander Holyfield's ear, in other words?" Alice teased gently, lifting an eyebrow in speculation and chuckling on seeing Tina blush in embarrassment.
"Something like that," said Tina in dry tones as she gave Alice a poke to her side. Hazel eyes darkened and Tina's voice dropped into a shaky octave.
