I already Do
Bette expected her head to hurt, but for some reason it wasnt as bad as she anticipated. Her eyes still closed she rolled over and heard the crunching of paper.
What the hell? When she sat up the paper note followed suit.
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter, and I gave forgiveness I had been denying
Tina. Was she right? Was she here? Was it not just a drunken dream that tortured her again? Giving her head a second she then got up to go see. She walked slowly and full of fright not knowing anything and forgetting how awful she did feel.
She stopped walking, stood still, and stopped breathing, as she saw her there in her kitchen. Here in New York, in her house, in her kitchen, but most of all in her heart. She was cooking and singing a long with Bettes music.
I found a reason for me, to change who I used to be
Baby, was all she could whisper. Tina didnt hear her, but she felt her so she turned around. This couldnt be right, could it?
Bette, as she walked up to give her a hug.
Tina, I dont as Tina shushed her.
I said dont, as she tugged Bette by her necklace with her ring on it towards her, and gave her the most sweetest kiss she had ever given.
As Tina finished the kiss she started Bette could only stand there with her eyes closed not being able to stop her tears. She brought her hand up to her lips not wanting to ever forget that touch. Tina then only smiled and Bette felt it so she opened up her eyes to see it for herself.
The silence and the stares, and the remains of the last tears were all that was left in between them. Bette knew she had to start somewhere and having Tinas arms around her wasnt a bad place to start.
You dont have to Bette.
Yes I do. I need to. Besides its the least I can do to start healing you again.
Healing us Bette, its for healing us.
Bette took her arms from around herself and put them on her shoulders.
Help me put you on the counter. On three okay.
Tina now seated and Bette between her legs, I thought you should sit. This might take a few minutes, but you need to hear this. I need to let if go for once and all.
Sure baby, but are you not hurting. Do you need me to get you something?
I have what I need right here. In front of me, shes all Ill ever need.
Bette, as she caressed her cheeks.
Well here it goes ok.
Look about ten months ago I broke my wifes heart. No excuses or lies or anything else could amount to the regret that those actions gave me for doing them. The one thing I had come to need to live, was the only thing keeping me there when nothing else could. It was you. But I already knew that you couldnt see me, I couldnt let you see me because it would only break you more than you deserved. And the times I tried to get you to even give me a second were my only lines of hope.
No, dont Tina I deserved it. All of it.