The throbbing of my head had decreased, and, before I opened them, I knew I would continue the road I had taken before...

I would leave, before she would wake up...

I would keep avoiding her...

Keep avoiding feeling this way about her...

An impossible mission,

For she was, and always would be, the only woman I was in love with...

A shiver made me aware of someones presence, and as my eyes shot open, they met the dark brown I had so many times longed to see while waking up...

‘Hey’

She said softly, shyly, approaching the couch with a hesitance that was highly unlike her... Her eyes fluttered, from one side to another, never meeting mine after their short initial contact...

‘Hey’

The sound was hoarse, rough by the dryness of my throat...

I felt the constricting of my pupils as I tried to focus on her figure, as she sat next to me, her hands in her lap, nervously fidgetting with her fingers...

‘I’m sorry’

I made a all-involving gesture around the livingroom, apoligizing for my presence, for the awkwardness of the situation... I knew she must feel awfull about the infidility that had lain within our kiss, the infidility to the woman she was in love with...

She glanced at me briefly and smiled that lopsided smile, quickly averting her eyes again, shaking her head.

‘I will leave before Jodi wakes up... Will you please thank her for me?’

I tried to move away from her, avoiding, yet again, the jitter of my heart only she could evoke. I managed to get in a slight upright position, but the weakness in my knees made them buckle, and she cast her hands forward quickly, breaking my fall.

I sat, across her lap, our faces only inches from eachother, as her eyes finally met mine...

‘Jodi isn’t here...’

The turmoil of sensations in my heart was extinguished by the mental reprimand I gave myself, and I protested...

‘But’

‘T...’

She brought her finger to my lips, stopping the words that were about to exit...

Those eyes, changing color with every swift of them, changing the way I felt, with only the light in them... And... The direction of them, as she glanced from my eyes to my mouth...

She cupped my face in her hands, her thumb taking over the task of her finger, carefully stroking the line of my lips, causing me to shiver...