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I was thinking over the last several days, after a number of very nice PM's and Emails, what a valuable community of women (and some men too) on this site. It's a place where everyone can come and hopefully find a group of individuals who share similar struggles, visions, pasts, etc. without feeling strain, judgment, conflict, or anything that we might all be facing in our lives. The strength that is found in supporting one another, epitomizes the beauty that is within each person who is a part of this community. I would encourage everyone, to continue to reach out to one another and share of yourselves, experiences, and knowledge. Somewhere, it will end up offering something important to another human being, and what you gain in return is immeasurable.
It is a remarkably gorgeous weekend here in New England, and Ness and I are going to take advantage by going for a ride to the ocean, where we can hopefully get some wonderful pictures for an upcoming photography showing at a gallery. The Artist's Night was fabulous, and the talent shared was so diverse and to say it was incredible would seem an injustice.
Today, we are excited to be meeting up with a wonderful person from this site, and another who will be sharing in our ceremony in September. It is always a pleasure to actually be able to meet someone you have been in touch with, but have not had the opportunity to share a conversation in person. We hope to close out the weekend with a relaxing moment by the chiminea, watching the glow light up the evening's darkness. We both really enjoy sitting in front of the outside fire pit and sharing some thoughts, laughs, and a few drinks as we both become reflective.
I am so pleased by those that are enjoying this storyline. It sure has its struggles and painful moments built in, but it seems that there are a few things in here that so many are identifying with. I'm glad I can offer you something to get yourself "lost" in if you will, or even to find a bit helpful as you reflect on your own life.
I once again must put my "middle" hat on and say I see BOTH sides of the struggle each one is facing. I will say again, that Bette and Tina are both adults, young for sure, but still adults. They BOTH entered into this relationship knowing the 1) uncertainty of their relationship 2) that Bette would have to go back in the closet 3) that school may or may not allow them to be together or not. Now, we see Tina going through therapy that is allowing her to look at a painful part of her past that has caused a little bit of confusion with her sexual identity (or at least she seems to feel that at this time). Bette still remains. I think what is important, whether it is in this story or in life itself, is to show the ability to look at ones self and realize the responsibility we each own for our decisions. Bette cannot sit back and just point any fingers at Tina. She needs to recognize that she could leave this relationship, and Tina is not forcing her to remain. It would not be fair to just think Tina is responsible. In life, we all find ourselves in places that we either expected to be, hoped to be, or never thought we would be. When that happens, the majority of the time we are there willingly. If things should crumble between Bette and Tina, then I only hope they both recognize their own role, their own responsibility, and not allow themselves or others to allow bitterness, spite or resentment to evolve. Let's also hope that should their friends begin to take sides and contribute their "opinions," that B&T both, or individually ask that they not do so. Okay, maybe I'm looking at this more from an adults point of view, which maybe asking too much of these young adults, for they might be more apt to want their friends to take sides. Taking sides is not a mature or healthy act if they decide to do that. Trying to remain impartial, is what tends to help people more, because that impartial view usually promotes friends to consider the other persons position even more. So, let's hope the friends can be supportive to both of them and try to just offer what they can, in terms of whatever the needs of their friends end up being.
lisa328: Hey you! Yes you were first with a slight "foul" shouted at you for not reading first. LMAOOOO!!!!! Thanks for your comment. As you know, a part of the story is based on some "collective" experiences of four people, and I'm glad that you are able to see some identifying values in the storyline. Again, a big hug on that first call, and cannot wait to meet you and that surprise visitor from across the country in August. North End....here we come. Hugs.
coop: Hmm...........coop I like the way you think. Perhaps we are on the same wave length huh? Hee Hee. I agree that friends who get involved, ESPECIALLY when they are not asked too, sometimes add more problems than not. I think that Alice and Dana need to understand that although they are young adults, they are still adults, and that neither Bette nor Tina are forcing the other to be where they are. Their lives came together, maybe at a time when it wasn't the best, but it was what it was. They both share responsibility for staying in this relationship. I'm not a big fan of people taking sides when it comes to things that are not their business, and in a sense, friends or not, B&T's relationship is not their business. Hmmm....BUT..in Fan Fic land..I get this feeling "Mouth Al" might say something she shouldn't.
lwsho2005: Tina likely is not ready for intimacy, but as you said, we often can find teens having an intimate encounter before they are emotionally ready to. The summer program would have been a really good idea! Hmm...wish I thought of it. Thanks for reading and commenting.
Probie: Hi there Pro! Wow, that's a strong comment...the part about the hope. I think that hope can be a driving force for some, and something that can deteriorate the self for others. LMAO at the nooky part. Oh you bet Jenny will probably be happy if B&T split. There certainly can be a venom like that in that gal, which makes no sense to me, because you end up taking more time to be a negative person, than it is to be a positive one. Poor Jenny. Thank you for reading and commenting. Yeah, no frustration at this time. LOL!!!!!!!! I'll send you some info on Boston today.
ZLFan: Yeah, the hormones raging doesn't help one think now does it??? LOL! Ahhh yes, Coop referenced that potential that the girls will open a can of worms...yep, I think we might see a little drama. I doubt Bette would be happy to know the original intent of Tina's wanting to meet up with her.
BeJacks: ROFLMAO, god you are too funny. Who says men are going to win??? I told you to trust me there girl. I know you are a TiBetter.....and remember, I am too.
Lamentamini: Ohhh Coop hit it right on the head for sure! Ah you said it, that love has a way of making one act in a good way and sometimes in a not so good way. Either way, I guess it all works out and you end up where you need to be in life. I agree, I think that Bette will be feeling a lot of turmoil and pain as a result of this relationship. Abusers are predators, and it's a shame that Tina went through it, but obviously, more devastating are the people in life who experienced that.
Anngie Mosby: ROFLMAOOO okay okay, leave it. I have had a lot of fun poked at me for revealing that. BUT, I know when we have children, that will all change, so then I'll even now what Blueberries and Strawberries are....um....there are those such things too isn't there? Awwww the old fetal position can bring one much comfort, and even more if someone is spooning them. XoXo
rsa: Thank you for a wonderful comment, and I am happy that I can bring some of real life into the stories. It seems many appreciate that, and therefore it's present.
Dimples: Thank you hun. I do feel for Bette, but I have to say I feel for this very confused Tina. I appreciate your reading and your comment. Thanks so much.
StormyOne: OoooO I know you are big on seeing Tina's reaction, and before the summer is over, she just may get to see it. Let's hope Bette doesn't flaunt it to much though, because I don't believe that would do any one any good.
tylo: OooOOO Tam do you have to be so direct? LMAO!!!! I continue to enjoy what we share privately. The thoughts are very provoking, and you really are intuitive. Thanks hun. xoxo
dalloway3: Hey Dally! Of course you make me smile, and I think its safe to say that based on the convo we all had on skype the other night, your cracking up so much made me laugh even harder!!! October Rumbles eh? Well we may be having a few more people joining us, which will be fun! Talk to you soon, and I'm sure Shell will be around as well. Love and Hugs my friend. xoxo
brighteyez07: Thank you for your comments here, and the PM's. I appreciate al you have to say, and I am thankful that you have reached out to share your thoughts and opinions. Thanks again for enjoying all the stories.
pandamel: LMAO, uh yeah, you did mention spanking! LOL. (looking over at Ness too) "Your so cute when you turn green" Okay so...you are on the Coop, Lament wagon about the girls breaking the news, and you should be because.....well.....it looks like that is where it's headed for sure. You have wonderful ideas there Mel, I'm liking it! ROFLMAOOOO OMG you had me in stitches when I continued to read your comment, the old "lesbian blinking" powers eh? They don't work for me so well, my friend Shell on the other hand.....she gave birth to those powers!!!!! I'll give you a mirror so if she does it to you, she'll blink back at herself and become hypnotized. As always, thank you for reading and commenting.
wigbee715: EEEEK!!!!! Tina seeming like Jenny. NOT good. Yuck! Ewww! Bette is showing a lot of maturity, and I know there will be moments you will take that back when she blows from all the stress.
Ness: Babe, thank you. I'm not sure what needs to be said if anything, except you are one first class woman who sets such an example for me. Before anyone else, you have been by my side and know the depth of my life, my past as you have been through some of it in the last two years(gotta love the go you had at one of the rents), and you have been able to tie many things together for me. I admit that I do try my best to show both sides in a story that I write, and also live that way because there are no "rights" in life. As we see in the story, with Bette and Tina going through this time together, and their struggle, it is not about who is right. Each one has come to the relationship knowing full well the obstacles. Each one hopefully will then leave the relationship taking whatever responsibility they both own. I know they are young, and they may struggle with avoiding the blame game and wanting to rally their friends around them, but I hope that if one or both do so, the friends will be able to remain impartial, and try to offer sound advice. Sure, it could become messy, but that is only if they allow bitterness and jealousy to take over if one moves on. It is "young love" so the potential for them to not behave in the most mature way is potentially possible. Vanessa, thank you for everything. I am comfortable knowing you, and most close to me know that I will hand someone the shirt off my back, if it means I can help them. On the site, It may not be my shirt, but it is in sharing my life, the experiences of those close to me, the knowledge of certain situations that might somehow help another person that I keep in mind as I write. You and I know how fast time passes, and also how short life is. What's important is giving back to people, even if it sometimes means allowing yourself to become vulnerable. I hope that many years from now, after my pen is put to rest, there will have been something valuable that prompted someone to find solace, help, and make changes that made their life more complete. Perhaps it isn't even changes, as much as it is looking at how much they have in their lives, and not taking it for granted. No matter what it is, a "6" I will be, "the helper" (that was kind of a weird thing), and I've been that all my life, and probably will be it the rest of it. You are an extremely mature woman, and I learn so much from you every day of my life that we are together. I am always proud of the way you present yourself both in person, and virtually as well. I know as a partner, when you feel the hair go up on the back of your neck, the first reaction is to react. I would ask that you continue to do what you always have, and just be who you are, the woman I have fallen in love with. I love you honey, always. PS: You sure did have a long winded comment!!! LMAOOOO. Guess ya do have a little Italian in you. * wink* Love ya honey. XOXOX
azmama: Hey AZ! It isn't easy in the least. I get about 5 hours sleep a night. I do a lot of writing between Fri and Sun, so I have posts during the week. So in reality, I'm not actually writing a chapter every day. I write 80 words per minute, so I can easily get one chapter done in about 2 hours. That means, there are usually about 4 chapters written between Friday night and Sunday night. Then, I response to my PM's from home. And the IM thing I can do while I'm chatting on Skype with 1, 2, 3, 4 or more people at once. LMAOOOOO. The personal shouts out, do take a little bit of time, but I fit them in at night as well, and once in a while, bring my personal laptop to work where I can utilize my lunch break outside at the picnic table updating the comments. I think we share the same 24 hours, it's just I try to multitask and sort of manage it the best I can.
Braz: Oh Brazzzzzzzz, you are too funny coming back in three times. I KNOW exactly how you feel about the story, I think you have definitely shared your feelings in depth, using various avenues! You know by now what I promised, and I keep my word when I give it. These girls will NOT see the last of one another. Unfortunately, Tina does love Bette so much that she cannot see beyond herself or her own needs. Did you get my email???? I took the first part of what you had and sent it back to you. I think we can get about 4 chappies total out of that. That was a lot of great writing, and you have me hooked!!! Thanks so much for everything babe, and we will chat soon.
wildtouch: Hey hun! I just know you would love JB doing ANYTHING to you! You're the best! Your page is looking better. You are pimping it up nicely! * wink * ROFLMAOOOOOO. Thanks so much for everything, and I'll chat with ya later. XoXo
Jackiee1: Wow, you got married too eh? It seems that there are a few women that are dealing with being married and a lesbian, as well as being involved with a man and being just curious about women. Either way, you were not alone with that. However, the latter part of that comment....Hmmm...not sure that many would say their ex hubby ended up he was gay after all!!! LMAOOOO Well if you can at least look back and find a little amusement, then good for you, and it seems that in the end it worked out for you.
staceyharbarger: OoOOo I don't know Stace, I'm thinking that maybe Bette may just run out of patience and also be quite hurt when she learns of Tina's initial intent on meeting her that night was to break up with her.
packer: Awww thanks Packer...er..PVT Packer! LMAOO. I am aware of the person who has started to reach out, and from the bottom of my heart, if there is anything that came of this story, I am pleased and fulfilled to know that it has prompted some to make changes that will help. Oh you have no idea how thrilled I was to learn that you will be visiting soon! We have plans to wine and dine you in the North End! : - ))))))
akaittlered: Oh you got it there Little Red! I think we are going to see the girls putting their foot in their mouth in a BIG WAY....guess which one? LMAO!!! Won't take too long to figure that one out right??? LMAOOOO. Don't you worry about our girls. If there is one thing you will see, is that the love will always be there no matter what. Even through struggles, and whatever else comes their way. Thanks for reading and commenting Little Red.
CoffeexStained: Coff, first, great chappy you just posted! You got me on the edge waiting for more. ROFLMAOOOO I love how you felt bad for Bette, and also Tina, but then back to Bette....but...then...it could be that you were feeling bad about Tina more than Bette, or Bette more than Tina...until the following chapter when you may have felt more for Mr. Piddles. LOL!!!!! LMAOO You know I couldn't resist having a little fun with you! Thanks for reading and commenting, its appreciated so much.
halfofone: Wow, now that was one powerful comment. I looked at it a few times and kept thinking how wonderful it would be to import it into my story!!! I know I know, probably sounds crazy, but it seems that you have an incredible insight into this struggle....so much so that one has to wonder how much you might have sadly identified with what Bette is going to deal with. I must say, that you really have seen into the pain and hurt that she has the potential of feeling, at an even higher level should this continue down this path. Tina....sheesh, I am not sure you held back too much there! LOL. You certainly have a position on the type of woman you feel she is, and I hope that I have not portrayed her to be a lot of those things, but mainly confused. In that state of confusion I think a lot can happen in terms of how she acts, but maybe it also at the same time should not be used against her? Okay, I'm being a sap, I know I am. I will say, that your "Letter to Bette" is one that many readers could probably identify with, and so for offering that validation to their struggles and feelings, I thank you for sharing such an amazing comment.
mette Hartmann: Hmmm...okay you need to be careful what you wish for! Hee Hee A potential spoiler ? Perhaps. I agree that if Bette hangs on for the next three months, that she is just going to have difficulty even more when she comes to terms with Tina's exploration of men. It's a hard place for Bette to be for sure, as Tina figures out how much of her past really dictates her present and her future.
jomarad: Jo, what can I say? Thank you s very much for all you said in your comment, as well as privately. If ever someone has been touched, I know you have without a doubt. I guess it is easy for some who have not felt some level of being mishandled, to not understand what survivor's feel. It is quite easy for some to feel that in discussing the pains of our pasts, that we fall into a victim mentality mode, but that is usually because people fear what they don't understand and its easier to once again put a label on it. It is sad that we see that in the gay community as well. When people don't understand, they put labels on others. I thank you for sharing such an intimate part of yourself, and no worries hun, I will never change who I am, as I know I have helped so many people through sharing my life and a part of me. Some have seen that relationships CAN survive affairs, and not be only like what IC has written for B&T, that you can survive sexual, physical, and emotional abuse and come out of it completely intact with the right therapy and support, to name just a few. I do try to offer another point of view, and never claim it to be the best one, the right one, or the only one. It's just another view or opinion to hopefully encourage people to think. Again, thank you so much Jo, I appreciate the open and wise mind that you possess.
patpez: Ahh...never heard of that musical. I'll have to Google it and check it out. Glad you got out to enjoy a show. We try to catch some shows in Boston at the Wang Theatre as just the theatre itself is the most beautiful. See, I'm glad you see that Bette is willingly accepting the conditions that Tina has laid out there. She knows full well what to be expecting, and it isn't that Tina has not been honest with her. She is being completely honest with her in terms of her not knowing what therapy will pull out of her. Thank you so much fore reading and commenting Pat. ** Hugs **
nic1976: Oh I know just what that little poem was too! Thank you so very much mate, that meant a lot. I shared the wedding one with Ness and she enjoyed it as well. I knew you wouldn't have a problem with that considering it was for both of us. I agree with what you said about the strength from within when it comes to some places we find ourselves in.
Rau : LMAOOO you're right.."madly in love." I think Bette's heart is completely in this. I also think that Tina has sooooo many things going on at this time, that perhaps for her it would have just been best to try to handle therapy when she was not in any relationship at all. This way, she could have avoided some of the conflicting feelings.
rockingirl: I know Bette is in this by her own choice, and although hard to move on, she still is responsible for remaining in this relationship.
Suejan: Sue, isn't it a great community filled with absolutely wonderful writers. Out of your list, I guess I would be the oldest one on the site, or as they say the "seasoned" one as I started writing in January 1, 2005. LOL!! Wow....that's a long time ago, and many long winded author notes ago. * wink * You should definitely take a stroll over to the Message Boards where there is a Fan Fic section to share your thoughts with others on the site, in terms of stories and such. I am currently following the stories of about 8 author's at this time, as they have completely captured my interest, and I am always sure to leave a comment on the stories of the ones I read, as I know how inspiring it can be to receive feedback. Thanks again, and welcome to our community.
AnneSoTina: I think before we see B&T be together....*uh oh spoiler* LOL, there will need to be some more growth on both their parts. Yes, abuse definitely has a rippling effect into adulthood if not dealt with appropriately. The amount of people that I have learned that have been abused is incredibly sad. I am trying so hard to get the message out that therapy is at least one healthy option, and ANY movement for help in ANY form is better than staying paralyzed in one spot.
Prasnil: I know Pras...unfortunately Tina is probably not in therapy at the most appropriate time. There is just soooo much going on, matched with the fact she was "forced" to go to therapy, so you get out of it what you put in. * sigh * Poor Bette.
AngelDana: ROFLMAOOOO yes I did notice the Italian in your last comment. Of course I would. Oh the Ch. 25...well you will see it now, its just a funny as hell scene between the two. I will definitely check out your fic, as I love it when people post their first story. It has to start with one post right? The first step. Thanks for reading and commenting.
trinigirl: First, no such thing as ones writing being beyond another. I think expression in any way, has equal importance and value, so never say your writing is any less of someone elses. I've found that many have been where Tina or Bette once was, maybe at a different age than them, but things always worked out one way or another. Life has a way of putting you just where you need to be.
AmandaMG: LMAOOO nope...no fast forwarding. You should know that by now lady. * wink * When you posting next? Talk to you later hun. Hugs and Kisses.
delicious: Hey Shell! So glad you are liking the story! I agree that Bette is setting herself up for a world of hurt, but it's her hurt to choose I guess, because there is no way that she could not realize how much more painful things will get beyond what she is feeling now. Tina is asking a lot, but don't forget that she is also confused because she wonders how much of her sexual abuse is impacting her avoidance of men. I think that it does weigh on that, but it may not be the full answer until she experiences men. I know you have a clue where the story is going, as well as two other ones in the making, ONE which you will be writing with me, but this one will take on a life of its own I think. I'm so proud that this story is prompting so many to think and make some changes that will help them find some peace and comfort. Shell, thank you so very much for just being you. We talked tonight about the types of people that we as humans surround ourselves with and how the definition of friend varies and can mean something different to each person. I value you so much, because our friendship is unique in that it isn't there to tell me what I want to hear. It is there to challenge me, to make me think, to look at life from a different view. I can't thank you enough for showing me how enlightening and enriching a friendship like that is. Thank you for your confidence when there were times I couldn't find it in myself. It was wonderful chatting with K, and so glad he at least didn't shoot down the old SD idea. LOL!!!! That made me feel real good!!!! Well you are on the headset, and I am trying to get this done, so I can post it soon. We love you babe! xoxo
OneStorm1: Hmmm now Stormy, if I were to "let the girls figure it out in their own time" does that mean I shouldn't write anymore and just let em figure it all out? LMAOO I'm sorry I thought the comment was too darn cute the way it was worded, and it made me smile so much! Hey good luck on the new job!!! I hope its something that challenges you. Make sure you share how it goes eh? Thanks so much for reading and commenting!
Lgirl87: Ah ....my Fan Club Director. ROFLMAOOO with a job like that you would have to be prepared for NO sleep...certainly in the public relations arena. HEE HEE. Okay so, I must reveal to you, that I don't require a lot of sleep. I think after staying up so late with my friend on the West Coast, that I have conditioned myself to get like 5 hours a sleep a day and I'm good. That being said, I type 80 + words per minute, and can bang out a chapter in about 2 hours. The comments, well...I just keep up with them as they come in really. I check back a few times before bed, update the comments in a word page and save them. As thoughts come to me in terms of talking with friends at night, PM's I read and respond back to (which have gotten increasingly more on a few sites), Emails and such, I then draft a "general" author's note. So before bed at night, I pretty much have my chapter written, and my comments done. I then have a lunch break where either I just eat at my desk (takes me only 10 minutes or so), or I just skip lunch. Either way I usually have about 40 minutes in which I update my author's notes on my laptop (yep, smart cookie here! I bring my own lappy and do my personal stuff on that). I know...you might think its anal, but I won't access the internet from work, so the lappy works good and keeps within the boundaries of the rules.
foxysox: Foxy, there certainly are different approaches to therapy, particular in terms of sexual abuse. Some will choose the Cognitive Therapy route, the EMDR avenue, or the many other forms depending on the patient and their circumstances. I think that with this Tina, at this age, she is taking from therapy just what she is "willing" to give as well. As you know, some will have to go to therapy more than one time, and we must remember, that Tina was pretty much forced to go, so you can imagine, that she is sharing just what she wants to share, scratching the surface and therefore forcing the therapist to do the best with what she is getting from Tina. Now....fast forward later....when she probably returns? Wellllll we may see some in depth things occurring in a PSTR type of format. Either way, you can certainly expect Freud to rear his head. LOL!!! Nice to be able to share some psychology in here. It's what I am going to get my grad degree in! Thanks so much for reading and commenting.
Pattifloatn: Hi Patti! Thank you for sharing your own personal feelings and how they relate to the story. I don't think you did it "backwards" so to speak. Actually I think that it happens a lot that way. From what I have read, it seems that many women who have been abused by a man, will tend to navigate towards women for emotional support. I think in the next 4 or 5 chapters, we will see a progression through graduation, the summer and then college. Before you know it, there will be moments that they will be able to be in one another's company, and realize that their life has been filled with "fillers" if you will. The love they share, really was and is no other love.
jp22: Hey JP, false hope is a dangerous thing for sure. No hope, and feeling hopeless is like a cancer that eats at you. At some point, Bette will probably realize that it is doing more harm than good, and will move on. LMAO yeah, having the cake and eat it syndrome. I guess some could look at it that way. I just think that Tina is soooo very confused at this time, and it is more confusion than anything else. Some will say she is selfish, but I think it is more that she is just soooo uncertain. She is afraid of giving up or losing the wrong thing, so she wants to hold onto all of it. Thanks so much for reading and commenting.
caitlin-jayne: CJ thanks for popping in! What a surprise! LOL. I enjoy your stories equally as much, and your contribution to the site is amazing. I do absolutely agree with you, that there is definitely more than one way of looking at things, and if life were not like that I think it would be rather stagnant and stale. I appreciate your insighfulness in grasping that part of the story, as I am really trying to show both sides as I think it is the fair and right thing to do. Thanks...er...I mean... ******** for everything. Speechless? You? LOL!!! xoxo
Annabel66: Ohhh Bel, the timing was perfect this morning. * wink * You are too generous with your compliments. However, I accept them graciously in behalf of both Ness and I. I am so very proud of her commitment to her weight loss. She looks absolutely amazing and stunning. The quotes you shared were so appropriate and I will cherish them as you know. The one by Roosevelt I have on my desk at home, and it is an inspiration to me. I believe in every word of it, and I for you to share that with me, tells me that I'm living it as well. I'll stumble for sure, because I am not perfect by any means, but I'll certainly brush myself off, stand up and move forward. It's all one can do in life. I am sooooo happy how you have been able to embrace this story, and the reasons shall remain private, but I can say that I smile if I am doing it some justice. It is true, as you have pointed out, I do wonder about myself. I wonder what each path in my life has meant. I look for the lesson to be learned. I hope to remember that most path's are not meant to walk back upon. If you cannot find some peace, lesson, or strength in your past, then the power of it remains solid. The St. Augustine quote was absolutely beautiful, and I thank you for sharing that with me, and the readers. Again, thank you so very much for everything. I know "thanks" is not always appropriate, but it is what it is, and my gratitude is there. Thanks so much for realizing we all have our paws...I mean flaws. * wink * Love ya too hun. xoxo
Love and Hugs, Chicki
Summary: Bette and Tina make love in the car.....Alice has a meltdown at the Movie Theatre when she learns her movie has sold out! Total Views: 3942 times.
Tina took the hand she was holding and brought it to her lips. Her soft lips touched the back of Bette’s hand and the warmth she brought to it, made it come alive under her touch.
“I love you so much.” Tina’s mouth confirmed her words as she made a slow progression up Bette’s arm.
Bette could feel her nipples immediately harden as Tina ascended up her arm with her mouth. Bette closed her eyes, she wasn’t so sure that remaining intimate during this time would prove helpful to Tina’s progress in therapy, but she needed to feel some connection to her that was unique only to them both. Their intimacy was one concrete avenue of isolating the bond between them, and keeping it exclusive to their relationship. Bette fought her mind and heart as Tina found her neck.
“sooooo much….” Tina uttered into Bette’s neck in between some tender kisses.
Bette was losing all her inhibitions as Tina took control of her. She was once again falling victim to the powerful essence that this blonde girl held. There was an incredible magnetic field between the two of them that neither had ever experienced. No matter how much they might try to convince themselves of something else, it existed, and it was real. Tina just needed to ensure that there wasn’t anything else MORE real out there before making a final decision to be with Bette. She knew in her heart, that a heterosexual relationship would be so much more easily embraced by her family, and offer a lot more ease and acceptance in general. She just needed to be sure that was the road she would choose….
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It hadn’t taken Tina long to discard her shirt, bra, and unbutton Bette’s shirt so it lay open, with her black lace bra accentuating the curves of her young, firm breasts. Tina was kissing Bette’s neck as she straddled her in the back seat of the car, her hands squeezing her breasts through her bra. As she brought her tongue across her neck, she pushed Bette’s bra up over her breasts, not wanting to wait to have it removed before taking Bette’s nipple in her mouth. Bette’s nipples were hard…..very hard, for she had been turned on almost immediately upon Tina touching the back of her hand, only moments earlier. Tina knew Bette’s weak spots, and exactly how to work it to get her girlfriend all juiced up. There was no doubt in Tina’s mind, that when she got down to business, Bette would be all ready for her. As she brought her mouth across Bette’s breast, over her sternum to the other, she exhaled a searing breath on her skin, taunting her for a moment. This caused Bette to put her hands through Tina’s hair and draw her head down even further, showing her just how much she desired her mouth on her stiff nipple.
“God Tee…I need you so bad” Bette pulled Tina’s head into her, raising her chest up, offering Tina more of herself.
Tina rolled her tongue around Bette’s nipple before sucking the swollen nub into her mouth, where she wrapped her lips around it, gripping it tight as she rotated her tongue hard against it. This provoked a deep moan from Bette as she pressed her head back against the armrest of the back door. Her senses were once again awakening, and not of her own doing either. The passion and control that Tina had to stimulate every part of Bette was mind altering at times. Bette tried hard to control her breaths, as well as her need for that release. She knew all too well that the longer she could hold on, the stronger and more explosive the orgasm would be.
Bette reached down between their bodies where she fumbled with the button on Tina’s jeans. She was desperate to get them both completely naked, so they could feel their skin touching one another, feel the wetness of the other as their legs intertwined between the other’s. Every time she raised her head from the armrest, to attempt a glance down at Tina’s jeans, the sensation of Tina sucking on her nipple was too strong to take, and she would soon find her head back against the door. She couldn’t take it anymore, and with the most deep and sensual cry she shared her desperation as she forcefully turned over, putting Tina on her back, first against the back seat, then ultimately in the same position she had been in. Her shirt lay open as her bra remained pushed above her breasts. She brought her face down to Tina’s breasts in an extremely strong way as she pulled her nipple into her mouth, sucking hard. Tina grabbed Bette’s ass, her hands squeezing Bette’s jeans as she moaned from the delightful feelings Bette had already created. Bette stopped for a brief moment as she literally yanked the rest of her own shirt off, followed by her bra and threw them to the floor of the car. She reached down and unbuttoned her jeans, pulling the zipper down before finally accomplishing the same with Tina’s. Before taking either of their jeans off, Bette brought her face back down and kissed Tina’s skin, sucking on it as she moved to her belly button. She rolled her tongue around playing with her ring. Piercing’s had been something that Bette found a particular fondness for, and on Tina, having the right body that she did, was extremely sexy, as her mouth tantalized it. She brought her mouth below Tina’s belly button and made circles with the tip of it before pushing Tina’s jeans open and pulling at her thong so that just the top of her landing strip was showing. She brushed her lips against her, taking in that all too familiar scent. She wanted more of her girlfriend….more of her moisture….her lips…..her clit…..her center. The desire was almost too much to bear as she quickly turned and began removing her own jeans and thong. Tina followed suit, at this point she could no longer take this slow, grueling, and methodical approach. She needed to get laid, and she needed it now. As Tina threw her jeans to the floor, followed by her thong, Bette started to ease Tina back down. She wanted to show her that the best love she could ever receive was from a woman. She wanted to remove all doubt from Tina’s mind that a man was what she would want or desire. Sex was now going to bring with it, a need to accomplish more than simply satisfying her girlfriend, but making it so she would never have to question what she wanted again.
************* MOVIE’S
“Sold out?! No way…I’ve been dying to see this one!” Alice cried.
The lady at the ticket booth remained unaffected by Alice’s disappointment.
“I knew we should have left sooner,” Dana remarked. “Do you want to see something else?”
Alice was pouting. She didn’t say a word.
“I’m sorry, but until you decide, would you girls please step out of line?”
Alice flashed a disgruntled look at the clerk, offering all blame and discontent in her direction.
“I’m pissed. When are we going to be able to see it now?” Alice griped. “Uggh…this sucks.”
“It’s suppose to be here for another week or so.” Dana wasn’t too disappointed. Shrek 3 was not something she had a major interest in. Alice had dragged her to the Shrek 2 and she wasn’t so thrilled then. “So what do you want to do now?”
“Can you just be a little more upset for my benefit please?” Alice was acting like a baby, and she knew it, but she couldn’t help herself at the moment. “I mean, I know you don’t like Shrek, but dammit I was looking forward to it all day.”
“Al, I think you are making too much of it. It’s just a stupid cartoon.”
“Cartoon!??? Don’t….don’t even go there. He’s probably the most compassionate male figure I know.” Alice defended her feelings. “He is …..sweet…..kind…..unselfish…..caring..”
“He is a green cartoon character with a big fat ugly head Al!
