I don't know how long I can keep her at bay. Apparently, the people who love you, the ones you left behindthey're not quite forgetting you. I hope your new life 3,000 miles away is what you always dreamed of."
(Bette pushes herself away from her desk abruptly and stands. She moves from behind the desk, turns to the back wall, runs her fingers through her hair and cries some more. She wipes the tears and turns around to a bottom drawer. She opens it and pulls out a well-hidden picture. She looks at it and strokes it as though she was stroking the subject of the photograph. 'Damn it Kit,' she says to herself. 'My babymy little girldamn it.' She suddenly breathes in and seems to shake her head and snap herself out of it. She puts the photo away and cleans herself up. After a few minutes, she turns off her computer and picks up the phone.)
BETTE- "Jason, hi. I can't believe itI got everything done. I can come with you tonight if the offer is still open. Great. I'll come by at 6. Ok. Thanks." (She hangs up the phone and stands behind her desk. She holds her face for a second and then runs her fingers through her hair. She brings her hands down and forward, and crosses her arms, holding herself. She looks up and ahead, staring off into the distance. She thinks of Kit's words to her'My new life,' she says sternly to herself. 'My new life.')
02/28/2006 ,
12:31:43 PM From:
BetteAndTinaForever Comments:
damn it...more tears, more pain, more heartbreak...i hope that when tina will find out that bette is gone, she'll know what she lost
02/28/2006 ,
12:52:58 PM From:
akalittlered Comments:
That was such a heart break for me. I hope Tina see that Angelica needs Bette in her life. I hope Tina finds out Bette is gone and goes to find her. PLEASE POST SOON This chapter was GREAT
02/28/2006 ,
13:24:37 PM From:
Jwet Comments:
Wow, you got me again. That was so beautifully done. Thanks
02/28/2006 ,
13:33:34 PM From:
skslkorty Comments:
OMG give us hurricanes,earthquakes, tsunamis a just cause and we are emboldened,stoic and tireless. Give us a heartbreking love story with a baby involved and we melt like April snows.This story would make onions cry.
02/28/2006 ,
13:48:51 PM From:
adway Comments:
How do you do it?? Your writing is awesome! Not only do you bring on the emotions, but the way you write, it's just so easy to read, so much so that I can actually feel like I'm watching my favorite show! Please continue oh great one! :)
02/28/2006 ,
13:59:41 PM From:
Seahurst Comments:
You have me thinking about this story now! LOL What bothered me after reading this was Tina's total lack of understanding as to why Angelica was so upset. It was like it never even entered her mind that she might be missing her other mother!! And the whole comment about Henry trying to calm her down and that didn't work made me want to jump through my screen at her! Duh...no shit he couldn't help...he is a stranger to her!!! When are we as a society going to truly get that it is not blood that makes a mother, or a family. It is love. It is who is there when your child needs someone. Tina is acting like it is no big deal that she just took away the one person who has been there for Angelica from day one...been there more so than Tina since she is gone during the day at work. Good God Tina!!! Just how uncaring and dismissive can you be?! Someone please smack her up side the head. This is coming from someone who was adopted and knows the true love of family...a family that shares no blood ties with me. Ok...done with rant...thanks again!
02/28/2006 ,
14:16:10 PM From:
amazonlvr Comments:
Excellent! And wow 9 pages! This is really a story, can't wait for more.
02/28/2006 ,
14:34:59 PM From:
vam Comments:
You've got me at it again. I looked over an S1 video this morning and what's so missing these days is the playfulness - never mind the love - between these two. I know it's going to be a painful road you lead us down, but I hope eventually you'll take us round a corner and let these two be together again. Need to hope. Wonderful storytelling.
02/28/2006 ,
14:38:43 PM From:
Clarity Comments:
Even though words are failing me because of your excellent writing, I thought I'd let you know just that. This story is excellent...and thank the Lord for Kleenex!
02/28/2006 ,
15:29:37 PM From:
Mad Maggot Comments:
Oh, another brilliant chapter, thank you! I was so glad to read your new chapter today, because your writing always makes me feel good, though the things you write are quite sad. I think I've already said that I'm in awe of how well you feel the characters - I have to say that by far, Kit's my favorite character in this story, because you give her enough lines/time to show us how she feels about the whole thing - I've always felt that Kit's not getting enough credit on the show, because it's an amazing character. I'm glad you made her write that e-mail to Bette and that it made her cry, Kit's really one smart woman (and so are you) and I hope she'll continue to be a part of your wonderful story.
02/28/2006 ,
15:33:24 PM From:
twc1296 Comments:
Beautifully written and so hard to read in the well written way. Looking forward to more chapters, but first must find more kleenex!
02/28/2006 ,
15:36:24 PM From:
missyang Comments:
Oh, Angie baby, don't cry. But if you can cry your Mama T's sense back, then... cry, well, a bit. I don't understand why Kit and Bette's friends can still treat Tina so well. It's also a betrayl to them. If I were Kit, I'd be much colder to Tina until her sense's back, hoho. Maybe I'm too childish and immature. Great chapter, please continue.
02/28/2006 ,
15:53:36 PM From:
bettyvhall Comments:
i'M TO DARN OLD TO SIT AT THE COMPURTER AND CRY. a LITTLE GIRL CRYING FOR HER mOM AND SHE IS NOT A YEAR OLD. Tina will learn sooner than she has done the worse thing to two people that she at one time loved.Bette will live but the baby will be the loser with out Porter in her life. What is going to happen when they,the gang fnds out that Bette is gone and Shane and Kit knew. that was so wonderfully written, Sad thanks.
02/28/2006 ,
16:05:20 PM From:
smiley Comments:
*sitting at my desk chanting*: "I'm not gonna cry I'm not gonna cry" Dammnit, one lone tear escaped!lol Another beautiful chapter, I love it that you write long full chapters! Poor Angelica, at the end of the day it's the kids who suffer the most. Although Angelica is small, she can still sense something is not right. I am sure if Baby A were to speak she would be saying: "where is my mommy? I want my mommy!" Tina needs to get a freaking clue and get her head out of her ass! I so want Kit to give Tina a piece of her mind! Her starting sentence should be just like she asked Billie: "Tina, what the fcuk are you doing?" Enjoyed the conversation with Helena! Please post soon!
02/28/2006 ,
16:59:50 PM From:
honda90 Comments:
I get all excited when I see you've posted...I know it's great and long...thankyou I love this story even though it's tough to read, it's so well written that you can't put it down...If it were a book I'd be done by now and back to reading it again!!! Pls post soon tks
02/28/2006 ,
17:16:20 PM From:
poohhoney67 Comments:
i wish the show would utilize the framily more. the storylines on the show seem so isolated and disconnected from everyone elses. IC stories would be a lot better if we can be emotionally invested in the journey and i don't see how you can do that without character insight. You do it well bringing in the framily. I liked the Tina and Helena talk, glad someone is calling Tina on her shit. poor angie. tina should know what the problem is, babies know when their mom is gone. sure they been apart before but not like this and never with a goodbye like that. thanks for the update looking forward to more.
02/28/2006 ,
18:29:34 PM From:
skyblue Comments:
WOW.. just WOW! YOU ARE A BRIILIANT WRITER!!!! This is beautiful done, please post soon! I don't mind longer chapter!!!!!
02/28/2006 ,
19:01:16 PM From:
B Comments:
WOAH!!!You said we wouldnt need Kleenex!!!Wrong! you are seriously breaking my hreat with this story,But its one of the best ive ever read,and there is great stuff on this site.Im so in awe of you writting...But this one IS getting to me!...Ive a new respect for Helena tho! really trying to be a friend to Tina,As Tina needs to get her head out of her Ass!(sorry Tina fans). BUT youve surpassed yourself with Bettes grief...Really amazeing writting..Ive read it twice coz i dont want to miss a thing,so keep it coming,Thanks
02/28/2006 ,
19:52:12 PM From:
charlenestate Comments:
Another fantastic chapter from all the angles of the different characters. Kit and Shane keeping the biggest secret of all tearing both apart. Alice who can sympathize with both T and B. Tina being clueless as to A missing B who was an integral part of her life...and not so easily erased. Bette trying desperately to lead a new life. Thanks for this provacative work of art and literature.
02/28/2006 ,
20:42:29 PM From:
bonaire girl Comments:
I'm clad i read this chapter at home so i could cry freely. Please post soon, and make us a bit happy again.
02/28/2006 ,
20:47:48 PM From:
onthebrink Comments:
Another exceptional chapter! When did Helena become so wise? There are so many nuances in this story, it's impossible to tell where you will take the characters. I'm looking forward to finding out. Thanks for the post.
02/28/2006 ,
20:51:21 PM From:
azmama Comments:
Merlin...As I've written before...your writing is magical. It is appreciated that your chapters are longer and well developed unlike the show. It is a real treat to read your stories.
02/28/2006 ,
21:17:54 PM From:
mnj33pp Comments:
I just read the 2 chapters at work, big mistake. tears, tears and more tears. i've got more to say, but at the moment, i'm speechlessThank you
02/28/2006 ,
21:48:50 PM From:
Brooke Comments:
What a mess. The email Kit sent Bette made me cry. I hope Bette fights for Angelica, she needs both her parents and Bette should not let Tina stand in the way of that. In the end, Angelica might be upset with the wrong persone and think that Bette abandoned her. Love this story even though it broke my heart.
02/28/2006 ,
22:19:57 PM From:
Marti Comments:
Amazing...may I say it continues to get better. To lie to others is something you could learn to live with and eventually come clean;however, to lie to oneself can be the most destructive and hardest thing to overcome. Tina is hiding, she seems to be lying to herself to ward off this revelation or great fear. And ironically, Bette is doing the same thing just three thousand miles away. Honestly, I really enjoyed how you defined Alice's theory of Angelica's constant cries. Her cries are like a beacon signaling and illuminating the way home. Thank you so much for this wonderful story;it is so beautifully written. Please continue to take us on this journey.
02/28/2006 ,
22:57:38 PM From:
fergz1 Comments:
OK..you lied to me. I did need kleenex on this one but I also had to laugh. Helena with Tina was incredible "crackers" I loved it! That is what Tina is this year! Thank you for this awesome story and I can't wait for the next chapter.
02/28/2006 ,
23:06:25 PM From:
Coach Comments:
Great story. I hope everything works out in your version because it seems that in the show B&T are headed for splitsville. I don't get it though? How a couple can have as much love as B&T displayed in S1 and then suddenly no love. Neither one is brave enough to talk frankly and honestly about their fears and expectations. I know the real world doesn't always have such heartbreaking splits. People who love each other beyond measure will go to all lengths before cashing in on their love. Your story, however ad and heart wrenching, is fantastic. I'm hooked. Keep up the good work.
02/28/2006 ,
23:52:01 PM From:
arkansas jo Comments:
a tear jerker and it is a heartbreaker too is tina so jealous of the tome bette was getting to spend with A is that what could possible be the problem baby A does know her routine has been messed up big time hope you have plans for them to get back together somehow it's funny but even helena knows they belong together post soon
03/01/2006 ,
07:39:35 AM From:
Paula53 Comments:
Great story....I am still rattled at the prospect of Tina having a relationship with Henry. I don't know why Ilene has to torture B and T and us too! At least here on this site we can speculate about what really happened instead of having it crammed down our throats with no explanation!I thought last season was hard!Again, thanks, you tell a great story!
03/01/2006 ,
07:45:38 AM From:
mariam Comments:
gees i'm crying too.poor baby without her mother.lovely story but don't make angel crying to much without seing her mother please.let them talk.some more tomorrow?
03/02/2006 ,
03:13:46 AM From:
allyemmerson Comments:
damn this is so good its amazing. you are very talented tmerlin and although this made me cry so many times i don't care cos your writing is so beautiful
03/03/2006 ,
16:19:49 PM From:
2sweet2bhurt Comments:
first off, let me say thank you for the comments that were said. I like the fact that you took the time to individually answer back to our comments. In reference to this chapter. I have so much to say but I will sum it up. I was very moved by the story. Mostly because I was lock into it from the first word to the last. Its so crazy because it goes back to my saying before. Tina has to really understand that just because a baby is small. It does not mean that Angie does not understand what is going on. That baby was very use to having two moms and was very close to Bette. That baby is innocent in the whole situation and Tina needs to realize she has a daughter now. Her daughters needs come first. Even if that means to saciface and make the baby by at least keeping her other mother in her life. It seems like what Angie needs and misses is the very essence of Bette. When the baby was in kit arms, I guess the baby sense that maybe mommy was coming home and fell asleep to fact that when she wakes up mommy might be here. Angie has this stranger in her face that her mom continues to bring around her. What she really wants is a happy home, her old home. I feel its unfair. Thats why I love your chapters because you write for what it is worth and not just what alot of people want to read. Your putting a real life issues in this. To be honest It makes me think very hard (when the time comes)about having a baby for my partner(that does not exist yet). Whether a family is gay, straight or just very confused they still have an obligation to their family. I understand Bette, she has been a mom for a year and has grown to love that child like she birth that child. Why should bette settle for being a aunt when she a mother. Why should she settle for being a friend, when she use to be Tina's lover. I don't blame her for stepping back, even though it is killing the very being that she is. Hopefully tina will come to her senses once she realize she is gone. Beautfully written. Can't wait to read the next chapter.
05/07/2006 ,
17:52:19 PM From:
ut Comments:
Damn so sad so sad!
