But humankindsocietyimposes its psychological issues, ideas, definitions on life and then suddenly we all gotta deal with categories, labels and all this other crap. I don't predispose myself by requiring that only men or only women will be my lovers. That would be so unnatural to me. I happen to find myself capable of being sexually attracted to either. But essentially, it's the spirit that guides me. It's that connection we all know about and talk about and think about in our own different way and on different levels. The anatomy is almost secondary. But Kit, I don't know how Tina necessarily fits into this discussion. Do I think she's bi? Frig, I don't know. I don't even know if now all she wants is men. As far as I know she didn't fall in love with anyone elseincluding the guy she's presently datingat least I don't think so. So, I really don't know what's going on."
KIT- "But Alice, if that's the case, what the hec is she doing? What the hec happened to those two?"
ALICE- "Million dollar question, Kit. And I don't have the winning answer. Are you ok? The other daythat was awful. I thought at one point I was going to get out of the car, take Angelica before you handed her to Tina and make a run for it. Away from both of them. I'll raise her myself. Just her and her earth mothernone of these confused star-crossed lovers and mothers."
KIT- "You and me both Al. Damn it Alice. You should have see her when I went to take Angelica. It was awful."
ALICE- "I couldn't stop crying, so I can only imagine what Bette was going through. I don't think I could have done what you did. There's just no way I could have walked up to her and taken that child, and watched what it did to her. I would have collapsed just looking at her. After you walked away, I looked toward the house. I saw her standing there in the threshold, holding on, falling apart. It just killed me. It was like she was never going to see Angelica ever again. I know not being in her life as a full-time mom is hard as it is, but somewhere deep down she must know that Tina wouldn't take Angelica totally away from her. Or maybe I just don't understand the motherhood thing."
KIT- "Anyway, so what have you been up to since then?"
ALICE- (She thought that was an odd way to change the subject) "Kit, wait, I came to see how you're doing but I'm also here because I'm worried about Porter. I haven't seen her since it happened. I went by the house, but she wasn't there. I called and left a message, but no answer. Then, yesterday, I got an email from her hotmail account saying she was busy with work. She doesn't usually e-mail me."
KIT- "Well, you know how she isfocusing on work nowhanging onto work, like she's hanging on for dear life. I'll tell her if I see her that you were asking about her."
ALICE- "IF you see her?"
KIT- "She hasn't exactly been making frequent appearances in my life since last week either. Don't worry Alice, I'm sure that time will make a difference. Eventually, things will get back to normal."
ALICE- "Oh yeahthe 'new normal.' That'll be interesting."
KIT- "Alicehow's Tina? I don't want to ask you to breach confidences, but what was going on with her that day? Did she fathom what was going on? I saw her and she was in tears in those moments, but.I don't knowI just need some insight I guess."
ALICE- "She wouldn't let me in. She wanted me to help her but she revealed very little and wouldn't open up about it. I know about as much as you do. I think I probably understand even less."
KIT- "When I called her to tell her that Bette had returned with Angelica and I'd get her back to her outside the house, Tina went silent. She didn't get angry or excited or anythingno emotion. It was odd. She just quietly told me she'd be there and would wait outside. 'I'll get Alice to drive me,' she said."
ALICE- "It was hard for her too. Well, not in the same way obviously, but she hasn't recovered from the whole thing. I think there's going to be more to this. Kit, I don't know when Tina will feel like she can talk to her again about this whole custody thing. It could take a few days I guess. But Bette knows doesn't she that Tina won't totally stop her from being in Angelica's life? Because she looked like she was giving up the kid for adoption or something."
KIT- "She was her MOTHERshe raised her with Tina from the moment Angelica was born until last week. Now, suddenly, for reasons no one seems to understand or deal with, Bette won't be allowed to be a mother to her. Getting to see her every now and then isn't exactly what she had in mind."
ALICE- "I know, it's not what any of us had in mind, and I don't think it's fair that she'll not be in a primary role in Angelica's life. But you'd think she was never going to see the kid again."
KIT- "We don't even know for sure whether Tina is going to let her be in Angelica's life more than on the outskirts. She'll probably marry some guy, maybe this Henry, and he'll adopt her."
ALICE- "No, I can't imaginewell, let's hope not. Honestly, I just don't know what this Henry IS to Tina. I'm not getting the full picture somehow." (She pauses, thinks, and looks at Kit) "You know, Angelica was pretty restless that night. She was really agitated. I think she knew there was something wrong and that mamma B was upset and that there was a goodbyeKit"
KIT- "What?"
ALICE- "Something isn't right here. I'm getting a weird feelingreally it's the same feeling I had that night. Tell Bette to call me, ok?"
KIT- "When I see her, sure."
ALICE- "I better go. You need anything? Can I give you a lift?"
KIT- "Thank you Al, but no, I'll be fine." (She stands and kisses her goodnight.)
(Alice walks out of the Planet and starts walking to her car in a contemplative state. Her phone rings.)
ALICE- "Hello. Hey Tina. Everything ok? What?
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