Do you understand me? Do you care anymore? Please tell me"
(Tina gasps and raises her hand to her mouth. Bette moves forward but Tina waves her off. Bette stops. Tina cries even more as Bette didn't seem to be listeningshe heeded the wave-off.)
TINA- "I can't" (She shakes her headtears aplenty) "I can't anymoregoodbye Bette." (She turns to leave. As she walks out of the bedroom, Bette lets out a whimper and the lump in her throat releases in overt cries and tears. She starts to shake her head)
BETTE- "Tinaplease" (Tina is on her way out the door. Bette somewhat yelling) "NO" (She runs out of the bedroom as Tina runs down the porch.)
ALICE- "Fuck NOshe's coming out."
KIT- "Damn it"
SHANE- "Shit, she looks like she's running from something not coming to tell us she's spending the night."
ALICE- "YES!!! Porter's in pursuitshe's going after her...COME ON PORTER don't let her go you boob!!!!"
KIT- "Oh my Godbabysiscatch herI'm glad we parked farther away"
ALICE- "I hope Tina doesn't spot usShane lock the back door."
SHANE- "What?"
ALICE- "Everybody make sure your doors are lockedI'll be damned if I make a quick get-away easy for her"
(Tina is running in the rain down the front walkway and Bette is almost caught upshe yells out to her but Tina continues running. As she gets to the front sidewalk, Bette catches her. This time a swift movement would not free herBette grabbed her and then quickly put her arms around her from behind. They almost fell but quickly stabilized.)
BETTE- "NONOdon't walk away from me. You won't."
TINA- "Let go of me."
BETTE- "NOI won't." (They struggle. Bette, fortunately stronger, is winning this fight, but hopefully it wouldn't be a Pyrrhic victory she thought. As they struggled, Bette was trying to turn Tina to face her, but she couldn't do it completely for fear she'd lose her grip.)
SHANE- "Oh my God, they're gonna hurt each other. We should stop them."
ALICE- "Nobody movenobody is stopping this. They're not gonna let anything happen to one another. Bette looks like she finally woke upshe's got the upper hand it seems too."
KIT- "Maybe we should just go out thereget out of the car and get a little bit closer just in caseI can't take itbeing in here with that going on out there."
ALICE- "Ok, but we stay back. Shane get that umbrella ready." (They quickly exit the car, Alice locks the doors, and the huddle under the big umbrella, walking closer to the scene, but far enough that they can't be seen.)
TINA- (Yelling) "What do you want from me? My love isn't enough, so go fuck yourself."
BETTE- "Stop pulling away, I'm not letting you go."
TINA- "Too late for thatdidn't you hear a fuckin word I said?"
BETTE- "I don't care what you said!"
TINA- "That's too bad because I heard YOUyou have nothing to give, no more than I'm sorryand I heard how much you miss whatever it is you hoped I'd give you."
BETTE- "That's not what I said"
TINA- (She let's out a grunt and exasperated yell) "Let go of me"
BETTE- (Bette wrestles Tina and they up on their knees. She then wrestles her to the ground, on the lawn.) "Look at me" (She yells) "Look at me"
TINA- (Yelling) "Get off of me. I hate you Bettedo you hear me??? I can't stand to be near youdidn't you hear that part? You said so yourself. Let go"
BETTE- "NOlook at meTina look at mestop it and look at me" (Tina uses her legs to cause the leverage to shift and as she's turning over she's raising herself, but Bette is hanging on and raises with her to their knees. Bette grabs her by the waist and Tina is pulling at her arms and intermittently hitting her, trying to knock her off balance.) "STOP ITLOOK AT ME"
TINA- "FUCK offlook at what? I don't want to see you anymorelet go"
BETTE- (Yells with a particular intensity) "God damit Tina, just look at me" (Bette moves her upper torso into Tina's now, and locks her into an embrace.)
TINA- (She's fighting her, but the closeness is conquering her. She sighs and whimpers and gulpsshe is utterly defeated and exasperated, and administers a couple more pathetic blows before stopping. She doesn't know whether to laugh or cry) "Let goPorter you bitch just let go of me. Look at what? I've been looking at you all nightwhat more could I seeI have enough last looks of you to last me, oh I dunnoat least two days" (She chuckles. As she says those words, her body is now not pulling away but instead surrendering.)
BETTE- (Bette could feel Tina's body releasing into hers and closed her eyes, her entire body realizing the presence of the one it had longed for all this time, the essence of which it had been deprived all these months. Tina's body was defeated and lay into Bette, but Tina was not yet holding her, or embracing her in kind. Bette was scared, scared of letting go, in every sense. She held on, and held on tight, leaving as little space as possible between their forms. The spectators were scared shitless as they watched the scene unfold, and coming closer, though still remaining a site unseen. Bette didn't want this moment to end. She could stay in this position, she thought, for hours. The rain was drenching them, but they didn't notice, neither of them cared. Bette reached for Tina's head. She stroked it.) "Tina, please, look at me."
TINA- (She's realizing she may have got what she asked for, as Bette isn't letting go she's run after her and caught her, and now Tina isn't sure whether she's more afraid now than she was beforeshe's almost playfully engaging Bette, testing her intentionsshe wasn't sure Bette deserved to catch her) "Did I mention I've been fucking a man?" (Bette closes her eyes and grinds her teeth.) "Oh yeah, you already knew that. Did I mention Angelica really seems to like being with him?"
BETTE- "Fuck Tina, please" (Bette hesitantly loosens her embrace, just enough to bring Tina's upper body upright and in front of her. She still has one arm around her, and maneuvers Tina's head to face her.) "Please T, please look at me"
TINA- (Whispering) "Why? Look at what?" (She brings her hand forward and feels Bette's right shoulder. She's looking at Bette's neck, shoulder, body, but won't look at what Bette wantsthe brown orbs) "You're soak and wetwe both are" (Tina sounds almost delirious. She raises her hand to Bette's face and her gaze follows the hand. Bette is on the cusp of madnessthis proximity to Tina and the touches Tina is administering are like drops of water falling from a tilting bucket onto a desperately thirsty mouthbut if the bucket falls too quickly or too soon, all the water will splatter lost on the floor and not on the hungering thirstshe has to face this last obstacle)
BETTE- (She grasps Tina's face with her hand and tilts her head gently upwards. Tina almost instinctively resists, looking down. Bette moves her lips to Tina's left ear and pleads with her) "T, please, I need you to look at me, look into my eyes" (Tina pulls a bit forward and rests her forehead on the side of Bette's face. Tina whimpers. Bette moves her face back, grasps Tina's face again and brings her face-to-face.)
TINA- (She shakes her head. Bette decides it's time to risk everything. She let's go of Tina's body so that she can hold Tina's face with both her hands. Tina's hands are resting now on Bette's upper arms. Bette positions Tina's face so that all she needs do now is raise her eyes to Bette's. And then Bette lowers her arms to her side. The sound of the rain falling was now suddenly audible to them both. They each listened and felt the night air, breathing it in and realizing they weren't in a dream or an alternate reality, they were before each other. Tina slowly blinked her eyes, closing and opening them, and raising her sights, raising her gaze up the face she at one time hoped to forget and at every other time longed to see.
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